Blog : 嗽黃 loneliness

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3/23/2006 12:59 am

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11/12/2006 5:43 pm

嗽黃 loneliness

很多的黑夜里，常常倚着墙角点上烟，让那一点烟火的闪亮温暖心的凄凉，让它倾听泪水奔流而下的声音，淡蓝色的烟雾悄无声息的填满了我的空间。在黑暗里拥抱我的孤独。

In many dark night, I often lay against the corner of the wall and lighting up many cigarette, let that blight fire warm up the coldness in heart, let it listen the dropping sound of the tears, light blue smoke silently fill up my space. In the darkness it holds my loneliness.

将燃烧的烟蒂轻轻抛起在空中划过一道火红的弧之后急急的坠向地面，准备上演粉身碎骨的壮烈，却仍在落地的刹那间用尽所有的力量迸出火星绽放它最后的灿烂，这个短暂凄美的过程像极人世间的爱情，灿烂才刚刚开始，死亡已悄然而至，我不厌其烦的看着它一次又一次的上演。

While flaking the ash off the tip of the cigarette, it created a blight red stream, it slowly decending on the floor, meanwhile it still burn as blight it can be, it did the best to show true color, this process just like loving someone in life. It always burning blight in the beginning, but when love fades away, it slowly dying down, I never get tired of watching it over again and again.

爱情，这不是一颗心去敲打另一颗心，而是两颗心共同撞击的火花.

Love, it is not just one heart crashing another heart, it take two heart to crash in order to created this beautiful fire.

WisemanPhD
(W ) 60M

3/24/2006 4:09 am

You are grieving like me Jon.

I never did do loss well,

I always had trouble with the grief process too. Not anymore, because I don't want to down a 12 pack of beer and take a hand full of pills and smoke 2 to 3 packs of cigarettes a day like I use to, just to numbe to pain for another day, so I would have to feel lonely, loss, betrayal.

But that is what happened Jon and I had to face it, am I doing a good job of it, obviously the best I can. I'm spending far to much time on Chinese FriendFinder because i can't yet quite cope with the outside world yet.

I have never felt like this before, yet I never had something like this happen to me before, only 5 or 6 months ago. The fact that you can reach out and talk about it honestly and I can comment my own experience honestly, simply means we are real here.

Two guys hurting like hell and talking about our own pain so we don't have to be alone with it.

Thank someone for the saying, "This to Shall Pass!" Until then we just have to hang on to out asses and hope they don't fall off.

Your Friend,

Wiseman

Jon27Chicago replies on 3/24/2006 11:14 pm:
Hey Tom, we are not alone, there is many of us out here that having a broken relationship, I learning to let a lot of things go these days, at least I don't feel so painful like I use to. and I found writing is a very good therapy.

qianjinyatou 63F

3351 posts
3/28/2006 2:12 am

you write very well, i like them all.

life is very shortl let your life with full happy and enjoy every happy time in your life.

even some unlucky happend, you can see it from another seit, you will get another totally different opinion.

hope you will be happy again.

hehehehe the best wish to you all.

wawa222555
(�� ) 38F

3/29/2006 2:20 am

弄这么伤感.....

没错！我就是娃娃，还认识我的请大声尖叫

dancer1982000 41F

502 posts
3/31/2006 2:20 pm

呜呜,,,是呀~~~Jon哥哥加油.....

WisemanPhD
(W ) 60M

4/5/2006 8:02 am

I know, that's why Jon & I are coming to visit you")

Jon27Chicago replies on 4/5/2006 10:17 am:
sure Tom, want to grab a cup of coffee after your appointment?

mika_18
(name ) 39F

4/24/2006 9:17 am

Life is like water if its looked after then water never drain away,life has many pains and also many joys to.i feel also when i hurt or many pains in my heart i write this also help me feel a little better.

Love to is also like beautiful flower it need always be watered and fed so it always grow and bloom.People have so many pains,if only we can imbrase them and learn from them to,pain and heart ache never goes away it may always be healed but never go away.